this weekend will be a weekend to heal from posion oake� with a sunburn on top to stress,i plan on cooking,do whatever housework i have to do,reading up lifting positive stuff,spend time in prayer,bible study, and relaxiation tequineques to feel better i know if i dont take care of myself no one will,and in order to serve the god i belive in i have to be well and happy,life here is not bad even with all i have been through and all of the obstacles aginst my secuss i am still alive and still choosing a positive way of life,if i have a choice and i do between down cast negative thoughts and positive thoughts i m choosing positive thoughts becuse i feel better,im finding that alot of the stress is self inflicted by worrying about what could happen and what i cnat change so today im gonna make myself deal with one problem at a time� write down ways and ideas to deal with what� ever my problem is go to god who will help me and take care of it my life isnt perfect but im tried of just making the best of it and just getting by i want a better life and more and in order to do that some changes,and some of them painful have to be made and it starts with my attitude and what i think,then what i expect to happen must be� i can no longer afford to expect diaster when i can expect something good,and watch and do my part to make the good things in life come who knows i may not be alive tommrow no one can predict that but i cna and will enjoy today anyway way that i can through good food good music enjoying the company of my cat what ever it takes to put a smile and just be happy